not in between
October 2 - October 31, 2021
6-8pm, Saturday October 2nd
I once stood under a 1000-foot vessel. It was a dangerous and exhilarating place, and beneath the totality of steel and bulk I saw smallness in a manner I’d never known. I was nothing, and I was nowhere. I became driven by an aspiration to enter a union of the unseen, cursing authority, while maintaining a fidelity to the pack. I sought a paradoxical freedom marked by toil and offset by unrepented play. Yet, my desire was just a daydream, a longing to be fierce and fearless. I was out of place. I could walk to the edge, but I would not jump.
The middle is rarely celebrated. At times it is even shunned, rejected as an undecided position, a destination yet reached, or a situation amid tension. Betweenness is ultimately defined by the conditions that mark, limit, confine or restrict. Longing to escape from in between indicates restlessness, a desire to be elsewhere, to be over there rather than here. Without ends there are no in-betweens, only presences.
My creative endeavor is a manifestation of practice, a repeated return to actions of searching, making, and reflecting. The exhibited works become moments of exchange, temporal incarnations and placeholders, emphasizing a provisional language of materials and processes in flux. Courting failure and seeking conditional outcomes within normative constructs, the makeshift confronts accepted structures and logistics, leveraging instability as a condition for change.